Career Confusion

Now that I'm starting to love my job as a Marketing Officer in a construction supplies/solutions company, more opportunities of getting a higher-paying job are coming my way.

Before applying for the job where I am at right now, I submitted an application to JALways and I got shortlisted. Anytime in October, the employers from Japan will come and probably check on the application of the shortlisted candidates. Yikes, of course I wanna make it there because it would earn me a lot of money. However, it's gonna be hard to leave my current job.

I thought that was my only problem. But now, Emirates will finally be conducting screening in Manila this October. I really waited for this to come since EK has frozen its hiring for a couple of months. I really wanna apply but I'm kinda hesitant because I know how much my boss in my current job depends on me. He'll be very disappointed if I decide to leave the company.

Actually, being a flight attendant is not really my ultimate dream. It's just something I wanna do for the shortest time possible just to earn enough savings that I would use to prepare for a better future. Honestly, I don't wanna be bossed around and I'm not a very patient person that's why I'm not really that good at customer service. However, this is the kind of job that I think would earn me a lot of money for the shortest time possible, therefore after saving enough, I could immediately quit that job and pursue the career that i really love.

Well, I wanna be a boss. I wanna have my own business. I also wanna make a company grow. I wanna feel important and appreciated in an institution. I wanna be a well-known person in my field. And I want my actions to be significant in the success of a company. These are all the reasons why I wanna stay in my current job. This is where all the opportunities for a successful career are. But I am not sure if it would still be there for me when I leave now and work as an FA and come back after a year or two. Right now, I am fulfilled career-wise but not financially. But as always, I am now down to choosing between pride and money.

I am torn. I don't know what to pray for. For me to be accepted in JAL/Emirates or not? Right now I can't think of anything to pray for but guidance & peace of mind. I hope everything will fall into place. I know God has his plans for me and I'll just live by those plans.